I began to fear as I wrote in this book that
I was getting too diffuse. But now I am glad that I went into detail from the
first, for there is something so strange about this place and all in it that I
cannot but feel uneasy. I wish I were safe out of it, or that I had never come.
It may be that this strange night existence is telling on me, but would that that
were all! If there were any one to talk to I could bear it, but there is no one.
I have only the Count to speak with, and he--I fear I am myself the only living
soul within the place. Let me be prosaic so far as facts can be. It will help
me to bear up, and imagination must not run riot with me. If it does I am lost.
Let me say at once how I stand, or seem to.
I only slept a few hours when
I went to bed, and feeling that I could not sleep any more, got up. I had hung
my shaving glass by the window, and was just beginning to shave. Suddenly I felt
a hand on my shoulder, and heard the Count's voice saying to me, "Good morning."
I started, for it amazed me that I had not seen him, since the reflection of the
glass covered the whole room behind me. In starting I had cut myself slightly,
but did not notice it at the moment. Having answered the Count's salutation, I
turned to the glass again to see how I had been mistaken. This time there could
be no error, for the man was close to me, and I could see him over my shoulder.
But there was no reflection of him in the mirror! The whole room behind me was
displayed, but there was no sign of a man in it, except myself.
startling, and coming on the top of so many strange things, was beginning to increase
that vague feeling of uneasiness which I always have when the Count is near. But
at the instant I saw that the cut had bled a little, and the blood was trickling
over my chin. I laid down the razor, turning as I did so half round to look for
some sticking plaster. When the Count saw my face, his eyes blazed with a sort
of demoniac fury, and he suddenly made a grab at my throat. I drew away and his
hand touched the string of beads which held the crucifix. It made an instant change
in him, for the fury passed so quickly that I could hardly believe that it was
"Take care," he said, "take care how you cut
yourself. It is more dangerous that you think in this country." Then seizing
the shaving glass, he went on, "And this is the wretched thing that has done
the mischief. It is a foul bauble of man's vanity. Away with it!" And opening
the window with one wrench of his terrible hand, he flung out the glass, which
was shattered into a thousand pieces on the stones of the courtyard far below.
Then he withdrew without a word. It is very annoying, for I do not see how I am
to shave, unless in my watch-case or the bottom of the shaving pot, which is fortunately
When I went into the dining room, breakfast was prepared, but
I could not find the Count anywhere. So I breakfasted alone. It is strange that
as yet I have not seen the Count eat or drink. He must be a very peculiar man!
After breakfast I did a little exploring in the castle. I went out on the stairs,
and found a room looking towards the South.
The view was magnificent, and
from where I stood there was every opportunity of seeing it. The castle is on
the very edge of a terrific precipice. A stone falling from the window would fall
a thousand feet without touching anything! As far as the eye can reach is a sea
of green tree tops, with occasionally a deep rift where there is a chasm. Here
and there are silver threads where the rivers wind in deep gorges through the
But I am not in heart to describe beauty, for when I had seen the
view I explored further. Doors, doors, doors everywhere, and all locked and bolted.
In no place save from the windows in the castle walls is there an available exit.
The castle is a veritable prison, and I am a prisoner!